After recent big changes in my life I need to write again but I am finding it so hard.The words are in me but I just cannot get them down on to the page. Even to open one of my unfinished works is hard.
I find myself just putting it off. Procrastination at its worst. Just finish this email and I’ll get onto it. Just clean this sink and I’ll be on the case. Just a quick sandwich and I will astonish the writing world with my new tome … But I don’t. My pages remain blank. My works in progress get staler and stalled.
It’s not that I don’t have the words, the ideas, the plots but they go no further than my mind.
I hate this.
A blank white page stares back at me
It mocks me, it scares me
So so many words … so many emotions in me
Struggling to find transition to print.
My biggest fear is to begin … to fail abysmally before I even start.
And with that awful fear I feel those beautiful thoughts trickle away
… to nothingness. To heartbreaking waste
Sometimes a few dry bones of creation flutter around still
But my mind fails to grasp them. They wither away to oblivion …
… and the page is still forever blank.
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