Today is a slightly better day for me. I hardly slept, maybe because of the unseasonable heat here in the UK at the moment. 90s and no air con. Phew.
But probably the worry did not help. Things just tumble through my mind in a never ending loop. What if this? What if that? How can I get through this loss?
But today is slightly better although I gave up trying to sleep at 4am and got up for a cuppa and a ciggy (yes I am back on them) I even took a few pics of the sky just lightening before dawn. 10 minutes after I took these it was almost full daylight. I did get back to bed but only dozed till about 7am.
I had things to do this morning which helped to take my mind off of things a little, a trip to the Post Office to pick up a parcel, visit to chiropodists to arrange a home visit for my mum who is in bad need of a toenail trim. And finally I had a haircut. It looks a lot better now and I seemed to have gone a lot blonder. Maybe it’s the sun…ha-ha.
I took this pic in the barbers because it made me laugh. Kind of apt too I suppose as I think in days gone by barbers doubled up as surgeons. Not sure about this method of tattoo removal though. Lol.
I bought a little Agila last week. What a time to buy a car with no air con. I just have to drive faster with the windows down…lol. It is also a manual which means I am still getting used to pulling up and stalling it because I forgot to change down. Other than that it is a great little car and easy to re-sell if needed.
I am obviously writing this post to you baby. I don’t know if you will read it or not but I suppose it helps me anyway putting my thoughts down in type, so even if you don’t see these posts (I don’t share them to Facebook) they are kind of worthwhile. A kind of self-help therapy. But if you do read this babe I do love you so very very much, how could I stop and I never realised how incredibly much I could miss you. You really were my life and I think of you constantly and yes I do worry about you.
I know this is unlikely to happen in the near future, maybe not at all but please remember you can always call me or email me if you just want to talk. That means anytime. You know my numbers. And if you just want to vent then that is fine too.
I love you sweet Raven. You will always be in my heart. Take care sweetheart.
PS. I planted some flowers.